Pride – August 2019
This email was a pleasure to receive and I am delighted to accept the invitation to post it here.
The Vancouver Pride celebrations were, as always, a high point in the year. The weather was on our side as well as the energy.
David describes his personal experience and it was a pleasure to spend the time with him and the others.
He’s in good company as a retired guy who finds limited opportunities for safe self expression. Engagement with Tantric practice in massage, ritual or simply conversational contexts can create so many personal opportunities.
As ever, email or call if you’d like further information on all this.
Sent: Monday, August 26, 2019 1:14 PM
To: Colin . <firstname.lastname@example.org>
To: Colin . <email@example.com>
This is David.
I’ve emailed M, K & J separately and am using initials only in case you choose to put this on your website which you are welcome to do.
My experience over the Pride days in Vancouver was everything I hoped it would be, and more.
As you know, I’d talked at length to M & K about imagining participating in the ‘fantasy’ experience with you all in Vancouver and on parade day.
As a family guy in his mid 60’s and widowed for a few years, I’ve been belatedly exploring my sexuality and have found that tantric approaches have added much to my understanding and comfort. This led me to the suggestion by my tantric guide in Vancouver, R, that I contact M & K to explore their ‘fantasy’ possibilities over the Vancouver Pride activities.
When I was married and with a young family there was little opportunity to focus on the unexplored aspects of my sexual thinking and appetite.
Over the past 3 years I’ve realized that I am fascinated with the energies of all people, as a male, and not just traditional heterosexual energies.
In my introduction to tantric massage and the group settings, which are often naked and mostly male, along with others in the gatherings I found myself as fascinated with the male form, touch, and energy as I’ve been with female company for most of my life.
I have chosen not to form any intimate relationships with other males, or females, but increasingly have allowed my curiosity about my sexuality to be present in my thinking.
It was with this in my mind that I contacted M & K, recommended by R (I think you know him) as an experienced male/female couple with a unique approach to my curiosity.
I met with them and explained my background and questions. They were so understanding of my dilemmas and, after listening to me, suggested I participate in their ‘fantasy’ activity over the Pride parade weekend.
They described this would be an opportunity for me to open myself to many of my thoughts and to safely make them a reality. I had explained what I have been thinking was too strange to contemplate making real. M & K explained to me that my desire to share myself, almost naked, and to observe others similarly motivated, was not strange at all and was very much part of many of the energies that Pride represented. To see and be seen, without negative judgment and with pride and to be comfortably and socially accepted.
I was one of 2 guys who M & K agreed to support in this experience, as you know. I hadn’t met the other ‘fantasist’ – initial J – before. Although much younger than me we soon found much in common, as you know, and I came to understand that my ‘strange’ personal thoughts were not so strange.
I just wanted to convey to everybody involved how much I appreciated the comfort of the house and the attention and support that I received. It was worth every penny and time so well spent.
The Sunday, including watching the parade and joining the crowds on the Vancouver streets was just fantastic. Although at first I was so nervous (I think we all were) to shed nearly all of my clothes and wear only a small material covering over my more personal parts, I soon accepted that I was in good company and I was able to enjoy what was a unique experience and energy. I’ll never experience Davie Street in the same way again!
I think my confidence was supported by the presence of so many people with similar objectives. I’m sure the majority were not novices in the way that I was but I did feel a sense of public welcome. So many smiles and reassurances from people we met. And we returned the positive energy in the same way.
I was encouraged simply to follow my imagination. For the first time in my life I openly embraced the energy of attraction to all who engaged with me without reference to gender or appearance. It was so refreshing. I walked with K, topless and as exposed as I was, proud in sharing her wonderful energy. And I walked just as happily with J and yourself and other males, similarly pleased to be sharing the energy of the Pride streets.
I think the energy of acceptance and allowing our exposed bodies to speak our thoughts and minds was so clear.
So again I thank you all for changing this part of my life. Naturally I’m going to continue with my tantric journey and I wholeheartedly encourage any who fear the confusion that can come with questions of personal sexuality to find a safe place – perhaps in a tantric practice group, and begin to find yourself.
It was such a pleasure to meet you and If you are moved to publish this email on your blog, which I’ve really enjoyed reading, you must feel comfortable including it. I hope you’ll have some time for me to visit you next time I’m in Victoria.
Thank you again,