Subject: tantra group
Its Ed here from Toronto.
I thought you would be interested to hear how my Tantric ritual encounter group went and compared with other groups that I havent been able to come to.
I told you before about the guy that Ive been getting massage from near me. He also has workshop groups which take people through stages of tantra massage etc. His ideas seem very like yours and so we got talking and I went to one of his group sessions. He’d told me that there was one other client of his at the same stage as me so we could be introduced together.
My description might be on the long side but I’m really interested to hear if it matches what you do.
I arrived at Petes place at the same time as the other guy whose name was Brian. Pete and 3 other guys and a female whose name was Dawn were there, so there were 7 of us.
Pete had put on some snacks etc. and made the room comfortable with a tantric altar, drapes and candles.
I can’t remember everyones names except Brian and Dawn but we were introduced. I was quite nervous not knowing how this was going to work out and I think Brian was as well. Pete and the others were dressed very loosely in what looked like silk pajamas. Brian and I were dressed in street clothes like slacks and shirts.They were all very nice to us. It seemed one of the guys was partnered with Dawn but they all obviously knew each other and were very relaxed. I guess theyd been there awhile before we arrived.
Pete had turned off most room lights and lit the candles. The mood in the room was friendly and positive so my nerves were beginning to relax.
Pete then took us through many of the concepts of tantra – energy, chakras etc. It was all what we’ve talked about but was worth rehearing as it always is. Then he welcomed me and Brian and said that the time of the evening was to introduce us to another level of tantrra beyond massage and that what we would experience would raise our knowledge of ourselves and make us more conscious of mental and physical pleasure.
I remember him saying that at first we might find the experience awkward but if we gave ourselves over to it we’d enjoy longlasting rewards and that tantra would open out minds and make us more conscious of sensual touch etc.
Brian and I were given pajamas like the others were wearing and sent to the bathroom together to change. Pete said to just wear the outfits and nothing else. It seemed a bit strange changing in the bathroom with a guy I’d never met before but he was a nice guy and I think he was thinking mostly about all this the same as me. We knew Pete from massage sessions and that he was totally sincere so no problem.
The pajamas were silk or something similar and felt comfortable and we went back into the room. Pete had put a low covered platform in front of the couch where the others were sitting. It might have been a low coffee table or something similar covered by a colored drape or cloth. Might have been 12″ above the floor and we were instructed the stand together facing the others on the table platform.
We stepped up and stood facing the others and Pete was to the side. In the background was chanting music and that with the candle light gave the place an exciting feel.
Pete then quietly announced that we were gathered to offer thanks for the chance to present ourselves in a safe and honoured way and to experience the energy trapped within us and to let loose that energy under our own conscious control. It was something like that and I can’t remember exactly. You might know better the wording or idea.
More words followed as we stood there and then we were told that our bodies and minds were to be honoured tonight in tantric open ritual and in offering ourselves as vulnerable we would move toward a better control of our own consciousness. As he talked Pete moved toward us and asked us to unbutton and remove the pajamas.
We followed his request, rather clumsily I felt, and then continued standing nude on the platform. I wasn’t sure where to look or whether to make eye contact with the others.
Pete then moved me closer to Brian and with a strap of some sort joined my right ankle to his left and my right wrist to his left wrist. I could feel his body heat at the points where our legs and arms touched. The straps were not tight or uncomfortable but joined us in an interesting way.
Then he put a fabric belt of some sort around my waist and with another loose strap attached my left wrist to the belt. So I could move my hand and arm at my side but not to the front or back. Same with Brian right arm.
The straps had distracted me for a moment from reminding myself that I was naked and as I again became conscious of that Pete came with a blindfold and covered my eyes and Brian’s.
More words from Pete who said that now our ‘companions’ as he called them would engage tantric ritual in recognizing the sacred bodies of Ed and Brian in part and in whole.
I won’t describe the whole thing but will mention the format which was repeated many times.
I could sense one person rose from the couch and came to the platform. We know who it was by voice alone. In the first experience the person came to the platform, probably knelt and placed his hands on my feet and said that he honoured Eds feet and gave thanks for sharing them with the group. He did the same with Brian. I felt the warm sensation of his hands stroking my feet and I felt that his hands were coated in what was likely a massage oil which transferred to my feet. At the time that he rubbed in the oil he said that the oil would annoint and raise a tantric energy.
I could feel myself becoming hard for the foot rub was very sensual. Because my wrists were strapped I couldn’t reach to cover my self or check anything and now I realised part of the point of the straps.
The person seemed to step back and sat down after making the same offerings to Brian.
I remember the next to attend was Dawn. She recited the same words as previously, this time honouring my legs, and Brian’s after, and thanking us for sharing ourselves. Her hands were covered in warm oil and she spread the oil on each leg up to the knee and sat down.
Again the sensation was so intense and I knew I was very hard. It wasn’t just the touch but the knowledge that all was being observed and I began to find myself thinking beyond the physical sensation since I could not touch my self.
Next somebody arose to recognize my thighs and annoint, always with the same form of words, gently and respectfully spoken. I remember this being the first time of any touch close to my genital region and I began to anticipate the possibility of annointing my genital region and thinking that likely wouild not happen. But it did, after the thighs.
The companion spoke the words honouring my scrotum and testicles and he used those actual words and annointed with more oil. The same for Brian, I could hear.
I wasn’t sure what to expect next and it was Dawn who came forward. She used the now familiar words honouring my penis and the expression of liquid energy it was presenting. I could sense that she must be looking at some precum. From massage exercizes I had been practicing controlling ejaculation and this was the time to control. I remeber breathing deeply as Dawn annointed me with oil and touched the now very moist tip and glans of my penis.
Although Dawn was female it was clear throughout that gender had little to do with tantric sexuality. It could just as well have been one of the guys annointing my penis. The ritual was about how Brian and I experienced the time and not who was providing the experience or their gender.
Later I talked to Dawn about this. I asked her if she had particularly chosen to honour our penises. She said that she had and that she felt that penisies should be enjoyed and offered by and to all genders and that in tantra we should learn that sensuality is independent of gender. Her question was, if tantra was to be useful in raising consciousness then that consciousness should be available to everyone in tantra. She remembered her own experience being moved in a group session like this, She said that the companions were all gay men and that they honoured her in exactly the same way as they would a guy.
With the same directness she said that the experience was just as erotic and sensual for her and so her own genital regions had become just as wet as the tip of any penis. The thing for her was always to enjoy bodies whoever they belonged to.
We continued in this fashion which included my anus, stomach, nipples, neck, face, arms and various other bodyparts and regions.
Each touch became more and more intense. At the end of what must have lasted nearly an hour I was covered in oil and sweat as was my new companion, Brian.
We could feel each others exhaustion as Pete gave thanks for our energy and physical and mental beings. He then undid the straps and removed the blindfolds.
Immediately we saw that our tantric companions were now naked themselves.
In front of them were drapes laid out on the floor. Pete asked Brian and I to stretch out on the floor which we gratefully did after standing for nearly an hour. Then bowels of warm water were produced and we were washed by all four companions with some sort of herbal soap from head to toe.
After being dried the end of the ritual seemed to be approaching.
Pete recited that we were all now companions on the tantric path, conscious of our physical and mental energies and in control of our sensuality.
To demonstrate this control and shared path we were invited to join in a tantric hug as Pete called it. In group hugs, he said sexual energy was discounted. In a tantric hug, as in tantra, the object is to reciognize and enjoy sexual energy. To close the ritual we should allow ourselves to release the energy generated in this ritual evening and share that energy with our companions.
With that Pete embraced us all and gently reached for the closest erect penis. We followed his lead and assisted our companions in mutual masturbation. What happened was that we all fell to the floor and allowed whoever was nearest to work on us until each had ejaculated. We became an incredible, sweaty, sticky mess of flesh and at the end I can say that I’ve never felt so relaxed and empowered and this experience stays with me even now.
Next time I will be honoring another new companion. After we got cleaned up, in talking in Petes studio I discovered just how connected tantric practice can make people who have shared and deliberately presented to others what is unfortunately usually kept too personal.
Thats my account, which could go on longer but I’d be really interested in how close this is to your group sessions and tantric ritual.
I’ll call when I get into town.